[ He wipes at his eyes, angrily. This is a weakness he didn't want to show. ]
So now that I'm dead, my opinion is suddenly important to you.
[ And, if he was really pressed, he would admit that he gave in to Helen, this is his fault too. But it doesn't feel like his fault. It feels like the two people he admired most in the world have spent a decade slowly tearing his heart out. And that, in the end, it wasn't even about him. He was too fucking beneath their notice. ]
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So now that I'm dead, my opinion is suddenly important to you.
[ And, if he was really pressed, he would admit that he gave in to Helen, this is his fault too. But it doesn't feel like his fault. It feels like the two people he admired most in the world have spent a decade slowly tearing his heart out. And that, in the end, it wasn't even about him. He was too fucking beneath their notice. ]